Someone gave me a lot of good this past year. I have been blessed with another child and blessed with health during a pandemic. I am blessed with a wonderful community that has embraced us and blessed with a new Chabad house/capital campaign that is moving along. The community is blessed with our largest Hebrew school year in the history of Harford Chabad.
All of this was given on credit. I just got a text from The Creditor saying, "Kushi, your loan is due. It's time to pay up for all the goodness I bestowed upon you and the community.”
I wrote back: "Dear G-d, I am here! I am ready to return the goodness that you have bestowed upon me, my family, and my community. I plan on paying it back by returning to who I am at my core! I am going to recommit to following the mitzvot you have asked of me! I know I slipped at least a few times over the past year, and for that I apologize and will work on improving. They say that for the next few weeks, you are allowing meetings with everyone, I look forward to hanging with you. - Kushi"
Not a minute later and I got a text back, "Kushi, we are good. You work on getting to your core, and on Rosh Hashana I will wipe out the loan and give you more good things on credit. Try to stay true to your soul identity. - G-d"
Count your blessings and pay back The Creditor. He will forgive part of the loan plus give you more goodness on credit.
Good Shabbos,
Rabbi Kushi Schusterman
Based on a Chassidic Discourse Ani L’dodi 5734